"Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts"-Arnold Bennett

even though im about to finish my second year of college, i realized that i really dont like DRASTIC change. i like it when things stay the same. i dont like it when i feel like i am the same person every since i could remember and everybody else around me is changing...whether it be the people i dont really know to like my closes friends. i can totally tell when you would see pictures or just hear stories about them. i wish things could just be the same.

going to college and just moving away was definitely a BIG change and i really didnt like it. i was especially leaving my family behind. and my close group of friends were splitting up going to different colleges. i thought that going to college was going to be similar to when i was going into high school, but boy was i wrong. those 2 changes are totally different. i especially felt out of my comfort zone when going to college. i wasnt going to be with the friends that i knew all my life. to this day...i still dont like it. i think this is why because i felt like when everybody was going off to college, they all knew at least 1 person who was going to the same school as them. and i was like the only person not going to school with someone that i already knew. even now, i still kinda feel that way because i feel like i dont even have any close friends at school with me that i can go to just like my friends when we were all back at home. sometimes i just dream that all my close friends and i would all go to school together...even though thats not a very good idea because we could be clique-ish...this is why i feel like im the one ALWAYS trying to keep in contact with my other friends. sometimes i never know if they even want to keep in contact with me...

the next small change is all my "little" friends are growing up and moving on with their life. they are seniors and moving onto college. the 2 that im really close with, i got to really know them when they were just freshmen in high school and i was a junior, and now they are seniors. its really scary that time flies by so quickly. to robert and liane...i know you guys are moving on in life, but cherish the moments we had with each other and you know i'll always be here for you guys, like your "older sister".

i feel like this is a pretty big change that i noticed. its the relationship between my brother and i. i feel like we were never really that close, but still close enough where we would talk or anything. and when i first went off to college, i think our relationship grew a little stronger, especially when i can home for breaks or whatever. but all of a sudden when he gets a girlfriend (he is still young) it all changes. now when i come home for breaks or whatever, he's the one not home and i am. and when hes home then im not. i felt like this was a big change because he got a girlfriend and he will always be my little brother. but now i dont feel that anymore. its to the point where we cant even talk to each other about that subject. and when our family talks about it when we are all there, it just gets a little awkward.
i just dont like change, even though i know i gotta deal with it in life.

cameron carnival 2010

so this past saturday, i got to go back home!!! YAY it was also the annual Cameron Carnival that happens every year on the first saturday of may. this year was the year of the tiger. and they always have annual shirts and this year, it was a bright orange color. we all looked like we were walking cones. carnival is always so much fun. and this years theme was the natural wonders of the world. carnival is always different and unique every single year, especially with all the different kinds of games that the club kids create and the play is also different every year. the play was done very nicely by the senior commission, epoch. it was very funny and entertaining. they also had a lot of choreography. all their hard-work definitely paid off. when i saw the play, it totally reminded me of when our commission did the play and it brought back so many memories of when we did it. good times good times. =) the games in the yard were all well done with cool and hand-made prizes. the club kids always put a lot of effort into these games and prizes. i definitely know how that feels when i was a club kids myself. dunko was very cool too this year. they usually have the same people who do it every year, but this year, the director of youth ministries was on it and that made it interesting. dunko is always cool to watch because you want to see who will be dunked like how many times. they also had thai ice teas and the jade waffles as usual. they are delicious.... =D and you also cant forget the chicken dinner. not only did i have to help out for the middle school game booth, i also helped out at the summer booth because im on summer staff.

i feel like carnival is like a little reunion. its a time that happens once a year when a lot of alumni's come back for carnival. its so nice to see a lot of people that i havent seen in a long time since i've been part of cameron house since the 2nd grade. and i like to meet up with my own commission...even our commission leaders. even though i go to school far from home, i think that carnival is always worth going back to see everyone. =)

URBAN SHOWCASE 2010

last thursday, it was the 2nd annual urban showcase here at cal poly pomona. since this was the 2nd one, i thought it was more organized than last year. some of the performers were...kevin lien, krystle tugadi, manny garcia, ed rhee, and david choi!! and the dance teams that were there were...team millennia, GRV, barkada modern, sheroes. and our school's taiko team also performed. which was really cool cuz i havent seen a taiko performance in a long time.

me and DAVID CHOI!!! =)

relay for life 2010!!!

this past weekend was the relay for life on our campus at cal poly pomona. i've done relay for like for the past 7-8 years back at home in memory of my "sister" who died of cancer at the age of 13. we basically grew up with each other so we acted like we were sisters. so i got the opportunity to participate in this event again, but just at school. i did it with my fraternity, well, we're trying to start it back up at my school. so since we're trying to become another chapter, we decided to do this. i found out that this counts as a fellowship, but then since about 5 of us helped clean up the day after, it gets counted as a service project. it was a lot of fun and we got out name chalked on the ground. and since our group was supporting breast cancer, this is what the chalk art work looked like...

DISNEYLAND with the fam...

so from april 2nd to 6th, my family came down because my brother was on spring break. they drove down friday morning and came and got me when i got out of class. and the puns were there. then we went to lunch and then came back to campus so i can get my stuff packed. we were then off to the hotel in anaheim hills. that night, our parents were meeting up with a old high school friend. so then my, ashlyn and my brother went to islands for dinner. the next morning we woke up and went to disneyland. we went to disneyland on saturday, sunday and monday. i went to all of my classes on monday, then they came and picked me up when i was done, which was like 12:50ish. i love disneyland!! and everything about it. =) it was just an awesome weekend to not have to be at school. i wish it can happen a little more often. tuesday morning, we went to this pancake house that was really really good in anaheim. then we went to downtown disney just to walk around. i decided that i wanted to start collecting something. so the thing that im starting to collect are disney shot glasses. i already have 2 and i cant wait for more. disneyland will never get old... =D